I (Molly) started journaling letters to God at the age of 12, and as I grew older, I often talked to God about the guys I liked and the husband I was hoping for. Below are excerpts from my prayer journals leading up to when I met Craig. I am choosing to make public some very private times with God so I can be an encouragement to you to go to Him with everything. "Dear diary" never worked for me, because seriously - your diary could give a rip! Just sayin' :). So I turned my thoughts, worries, and questions into prayers and watched how God brought peace, perspective... and eventually Craig - whahoo!!!
FEBRUARY 14, 2000 – 8 YEARS AND 2 MONTHS BEFORE MEETING CRAIG
Lord, it’s awesome! I seriously have NO desire for a boyfriend! Thank you for fulfilling me!
OCTOBER 23, 2000 – 7 AND A HALF YEARS BEFORE MEETING CRAIG
Lord, I want to be fully complete in You – lacking nothing. Please teach me how to do that.
FEBRUARY 14, 2001 – 7 YEARS AND 2 MONTHS BEFORE MEETING CRAIG
Lordy, it’s Valentine’s Day and I am as happy as could be! Just You and me! Thank you for desiring good gifts for me and for giving me the desires of my heart (husband… hint! Hint! Just kidding!) You are all I want and if You throw a husband in the deal, well, Great! I love you!
DECEMBER 2, 2001 – 6 YEARS AND 4 MONTHS BEFORE MEETING CRAIG
I really am looking forward to marriage, but I don’t want it to get out of control So please Lord, help me not focus on finding my guy or him finding me. Please help me redeem my time of singleness by using it for Your glory and an opportunity to be an example of a single woman of God.
FEBRUARY 14, 2002 – 6 YEARS AND 2 MONTHS BEFORE MEETING CRAIG
Ok, so here we sit on Valentine’s Day, 2002, and God, I am not the least bit lonely or sad. I am very content at where I am as far as being single. Please please continue to show me strategic and practical ways to take advantage of my singleness, Lord. Let this time in my life be used big time toward Your kingdom. Use me now in specific ways that You couldn’t if I as married or had a boyfriend. Please allow me to minister to hurting hearts and lonely women.
JUNE 6, 2002 – 5 YEARS AND 10 MONTHS BEFORE MEETING CRAIG
Jesus, will you please help me guard this special time in our life and journey together? I ask more than ever now, that You will bring the person into my life in Your timing and without me having to work hard at it. My request of You is that You would be the match maker and let me know when the time and the man has come. God, some people may say, “Oh Molly, you have to do some work too. You can’t just sit around and expect some prince charming to sweep you off your feet.” Well, God, you know I am not just sitting around – I am running after you, Jesus, and building Your kingdom. I am busy with that, so I really don’t have time to shop around! That’s the honest truth, Lordy. For real! Like I’ve told You before – I don’t know how you work things concerning marriage and who ends up with who, but I do know that you are my Daddy and You love me and want the best for me. So could You please scope out the territory and pick out a marvelous man after your own heart who You know would be the best for me and I would be the best for him. I BELIEVE You for that! How else could it be? So for now, Jesus, my portion is singleness, and I gladly drink this cup! Yum! Yum!
AUGUST 17, 2002 – 5 YEARS AND 8 MONTHS BEFORE MEETING CRAIG
Last night, Mel and I prayed for our future husbands and reminded each other not to settle. I told You that I desire to be a wife that surpasses all my husband’s wildest dreams and expectations. I want to blow his socks off! Yay! God, it is my desire to have a dynamic marriage – one that breaks the norm and all the stereotypes. Please prepare me to be the woman that request requires and send me a man that will fulfill the husband’s role in that. I’m anxious, Lord, but willing to wait so that You can work in ways in me that You couldn’t if I was not single, and also, I trust You are preparing my “H”!
OCTOBER 10, 2002 – 5 AND A HALF YEARS BEFORE MEETING CRAIG
Please continue to give me wisdom and discernment in this area – oh yeah – and PATIENCE – lots of it! Please prepare me to be an extraordinary wonderful wife. Please work in my hubby’s life too. Give him the patience and wisdom to wait for me and not get distracted along the way.
JUNE 27, 2003 – 4 YEARS AND 10 MONTHS BEFORE MEETING CRAIG
It’s so easy for me to worry about guys and marriage and stuff. So please help me focus, focus, focus and trust, trust, trust You to hook me up. I know I won’t be disappointed. Yay!
OCTOBER 27, 2003 – 4 AND A HALF YEARS BEFORE MEETING CRAIG
I really am in no hurry. You’ve given me a desire to be single (for now!). Please help me stay true to You, Lord, and Your work. You’ve reminded me of a lot of things, Lord, that I’ve prayed for for quite a while. You’ve reminded me that my future hubby is WORTH THE WAIT!
JANUARY 21, 2004 – 4 YEARS AND 3 MONTHS BEFORE MEETING CRAIG
God, the other night this good looking guy asked me out, and after we talked a bit, I turned him down. I don’t regret it, but I must admit that I began to entertain the idea of what it’d be like to date all take all the guys who ask me out up on a date. No lie, it would be fun – but I gotta keep being reminded that in the long run, it’s not the best. Too risky – hurt hearts, wasted time, temptation, etc. God, please help me stay true to You and my future love, my husband! Please help my husband guard his heart and have patience and the desire to wait for me.
APRIL 6, 2004 – 4 YEARS AND 12 DAYS BEFORE MEETING CRAIG
I want to believe that there is an amazing man with passion for you and that I can be giddy about and be attracted to. Please help me hope and trust in You. Dad really encouraged me last night. He smiled real big and said, “Molly, I know the Lord wants to bless you with an amazing man because you have been so patient in waiting and have set your standards high.” God, that really meant a lot to me coming from dad who sometimes teases me about being too picky.
APRIL 15, 2004 – 4 YEARS AND 3 DAYS BEFORE MEETING CRAIG
Dad took me to Camp Snoopy on a date and when we were riding the orange Tumbler, I told dad that is how I want to feel about my future husband – the way my stomach was flipping around. That’s what I hope and trust You for. Help me trust You!
JUNE 4, 2004 – 3 YEARS AND 10 MONTHS BEFORE MEETING CRAIG
I am totally seeing that my longing for a boyfriend/fiancé/ husband is increasing. A friend told me yesterday to go to You to fulfill that longing. That’s so true and I know I’ve done it, but I think I need to learn how to do that even more. I want to be so content with You alone that a husband is just a marvelous additional gift – not a right. Please help me wait with patience and trust, and to not get sidetracked by looking to and fro! You know what Lord, I am super excited about talking to You and relying on You for wisdom and advice when I do meet that special guy. It’ll be so much fun! I am excited to be giddy with You about it. For now, though, Lord, please help me make the most of this season of singleness. Help me be an example, Lord. I totally trust You with my future.
JUNE 8, 2004 – 3 YEARS AND 10 MONTHS BEFORE MEETING CRAIG
Lord, there are a lot of nice Christian guys, but not too many who are planning on serving You full time. I know they’re out there, though. Please lead me to him – or him to me. I want to believe that I will know – that it will be obvious in the way he lives and talks. My desire is that my future husband’s passion for You and devotion to You and Your kingdom will be so obvious that I don’t need to wonder if it’s there.
SEPTEMBER 6, 2004 – 3 YEARS AND 7 MONTHS BEFORE MEETING CRAIG
Please be giving my future husband heart preparation for me and contentment in waiting. Please give him wisdom and direction as he seeks You for advice on who he pursues and is interested in. Please save him and protect him from heartache and hurt. Help him focus on You completely. Please allow us each to be a gift to each other (from you!).
JULY 12, 2006 – 1 YEAR AND 9 MONTHS BEFORE MEETING CRAIG
God, I loved speaking with just the girls! It just keeps being confirmed that that is the most beneficial – girl to girl. God, my heart’s desire is toe be able to marry who I can join in ministry where we can speak together – to mixed groups, but then separately to guys and girls. If that is a desire You’ve placed in me, then I trust You’ll bring it to pass! (Psalm 37:4)
AUGUST 19, 2006 – 1 YEAR AND 8 MONTHS BEFORE MEETING CRAIG
Please be strengthening my hubby as we’re not yet together. Please help him set and maintain high standards, totally trusting me to You. And please help me do the same in the times I get restless or lonely (they’ve been coming more often!). Please help me continue to trust in Your timing and plan. Oh God – I’m excited! Yay! Please help me live my singleness to the greatest degree – to honor You with this time and live with no regrets.
SEPTEMBER 30, 2006 – 1 AND A HALF YEARS BEFORE MEETING CRAIG
Wow! You sure have been working on this heart of mine! I really want what You want. I really trust You. Please forgive me for worrying in the last few weeks and for entertaining ideas of finding my man. Lord, I genuinely am excited to live every day knowing it’s from You and trusting You that you know the perfect day to introduce me to my hubby! Until then, Lord, I once again hold my hands and my heart up to You and ask You to take them and use them for Your glory.
MAY 18, 2007 – 11 MONTHS BEFORE MEETING CRAIG
My heart’s desire is to marry a man passionate about speaking who I could support and partner with.
JUNE 26, 2007 – 10 MONTHS BEFORE MEETING CRAIG
I am antsy to meet my man!
AUGUST 22, 2007 – 8 MONTHS BEFORE MEETING CRAIG
God I feel so free and ready to truly believe You for the incredible man I’ve always asked for! Ahhh… please help us be faithful and diligent as we wait for Your timing. Oh my goodness, God! I am so excited to meet my man!
SEPTEMBER 7, 2007 – 7 MONTHS BEFORE MEETING CRAIG
God, I totally trust You for an amazing “catch” – one that I even believe will exceed my expectations! Whahooo!! Please give me (and him!) patience as we wait for You.
SEPTEMBER 24, 2007 – 7 MONTHS BEFORE MEETING CRAIG
I gotta trust You for Your timing. Please be working on me and my guy – getting us ready for each other. Lord, I am so excited to fully, totally and completely give myself to my guy! I am excited to overwhelm him in a good way. Please help me and him be patient as we wait for You and are led by You. Thank you for protecting me so far in this area and allowing me to have such peace and no regrets or baggage as I move forward.
SEPTEMBER 30, 2007 – 7 MONTHS BEFORE MEETING CRAIG
Dear Lord! This girl feels like she’s gonna explode from all the stored up passion and giddiness! Oh, but what a fun feeling! To know I have EVERYTHING left to give one guy!
NOVEMBER 24, 2007 – 5 MONTHS BEFORE MEETING CRAIG
God, though You haven’t spoken it to me as if it’s definite, I think I’ve slowly become convinced that my story is going to be marrying someone with a past, perhaps a lot of baggage and then helping them work through it. But up in the tree house, it’s like You hit me with this thought – it doesn’t have to be like that – You could still choose to bless me with a man who doesn’t have that story – and wow, God, even to think about marrying a guy who has waited for me was like a new thought for me! Wow, it was unbelievably refreshing to think about!
DECEMBER 21, 2007 – 4 MONTHS BEFORE MEETING CRAIG
God, please teach me things. Grow me and shape me into a more godly woman. God I do trust you. I’m sure that You have a perfect, beautiful plan and have Your eye on a a fabulous man fro me to love and support, laugh with and change the world with. I do believe one day I’ll stand before this man on our wedding day in my white dress and huge grin and praise and thank You for bringing me there. I know I’ll even thank You for the journey, the process and the road that brought us to that place. It’s just hard when I’m in the midst of the journey and unable to see ahead.
JANUARY 10, 2008 – 3 MONTHS BEFORE MEETING CRAIG
It’s amazing and actually exciting how much I have to and want to give. Unhurt and with no pain or regret, I find myself uninhibited and eager to share myself with one man. I’m so grateful that is my story, Lord. Thank you for all Your guidance, Your protection, Your enabling and Your call for me to live with high standards and wait for Your best. There’s that famous word that I am all too familiar with – WAIT! I giggle as I think about how many things I’ve waited for, and how most often it turns out to be well worth the wait. And then I know there are things that I should have waited for and haven’t, and I wonder what blessings I’ve passed up because of my impatience. I don’t want to do that on this one, Lord.
FEBRUARY 14, 2008 – 2 MONTHS BEFORE MEETING CRAIG
Ah Jesus! I love you! I am head over heals giddy about life and You! God, I am 26 and as single as ever and as happy and content as I ever could image being!! It’s so great to be Yours and to be taken care of by You. You are a good God. You, my Lord, are all I need!! Thanks for letting me be so content in life in my singleness. It is amazing to have everything to look forward to. I am truly overwhelmed, Jesus. I love you. Thank you for filling me and letting me overflow on those around me. Amen! Amen! I love you.
APRIL 8, 2008 – 10 DAYS BEFORE MEETING CRAIG
Lord, I don’t doubt Your nearness and even Your call for me to be speaking/ministering full time; but I have this ever growing longing to be doing it with someone.
APRIL 11, 2008 – 1 WEEK BEFORE MEETING CRAIG
Holy Spirit, I ask you to teach me and train me to be a woman whose priority is reflecting the beauty of the Lord, not the beauty of her body. A woman who is excited to keep her deepest secret for one man and to totally intoxicate him with the fullest extent of her beauty. Ahhh… that’s gonna be fun!